Sugar plum fairies came and hit the streets

Yes, a candidate for president can mock a disabled person during his campaign and win the presidency, it happened.

I took his mocking, bully arm gestures, like a bad and ugly impersonation of Ian Curtis of Joy Division personally (more on Ian Curtis and epilepsy in the future).

Ian Curtis was personal, about himself, with his audience, creating with what he had to deal with. He had grand mal seizures. His "epilepsy dance" was interpreted as defiance, punk, anarchical, and communal when in reality loss of control is the opposite of breaking down the systems of control around you. He killed himself as the result of his depression as it all caved in around him, as he lost control.

What keeps an artist working when the outside world is ugly ?

We have never had such a profoundly delusional president. The people closest to him appear to be opportunistic and amplifying their reach though they used to be on the fringes of belief systems that used to be too nihilistic, now they are popular.

Artists feel the atmosphere but unlike other activists, the revolution begins within. Gloria Steinem writes in her book Revolution from Within : A Book of Self Esteem about this exactly ( more on this book and its relevance to democracy in a future post ). 

Any relief comes from esthetics.

When moving in last week I laid eyes on, and in many cases lifted, every item I own. In clear bins are organized samples of materials, cast parts, art supplies. All very colorful and tactile. In my first experiment with making something in the new studio I gathered together some of these materials, put on a blindfold and felt my way to an arrangement. I used touch and belief. All of the heavy lifting was done. I was experimenting with the great unknown.

 

 she's lost control

she's lost control

 Ian Curtis "the epilepsy dance"

Ian Curtis "the epilepsy dance"